~Finding the Deep Truths Of God In the Simple Things Of Life~
Monday, January 31, 2011
"...for such a time as this."
I have come to realize that regardless of how trying (and really my trial is so minuscule compared to the hardships many others have to endure) these last two weeks have been, I would not trade them for anything. The Lord has been so very near to me. The sweetness of His presence has been unmistakable. What joy I have found in Him!
Yesterday afternoon I was reading Passion and Purity be Elisabeth Elliot. It so convicted me.
"Be still and know that He is God. When you are lonely, too much stillness is exactly the thing that seems to be laying waste to your soul. Use that stillness to quiet your heart before God. Get to know Him. If He is God, He is still in charge.
Remember that you are not alone. "The Lord, He it is that doth go with thee. He will not fail thee neither forsake thee. Be strong and of good courage." (Deut. 31:8) Jesus promised His disciples, "Lo, I am with you always." (Matt 28:20) Never mind if you cannot feel His presence. He is there, never for one moment forgetting you.
Give thanks. In times of my greatest loneliness I have been lifted up by the promise of II Corinthians 4:17, 18, "For this slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, because we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen." This is something to thank God for. This loneliness itself, which seems a weight, will be far outweighed by glory.
Refuse self-pity. Refuse it absolutely. It is a deadly thing with power to destroy you. Turn your thoughts to Christ who has already carried our griefs and sorrows.
Accept your loneliness. It is one stage, and only one stage, on a journey that brings you to God. It will not always last.
Offer up your loneliness to God, as the little boy offered to Jesus his five loaves and two fishes. God can transform it for the good of others.
Do something for somebody else. No matter who or where you are, there is something you can do, somebody who needs you. Pray that you may be an instrument of God's peace, that where there is loneliness you may bring joy.
Then, last night I was God led me to Isaiah 40:27-31.
Why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Israel, "My way is hidden from the Lord, and my right is disregarded by my God"?
Have you not known? have you not heard? The Lord is th eeverlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is UNSEARCHABLE. HE gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might HE increases strength.
Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhasted, but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
(ESV, emphasis mine)
I have become very aware that God has called me into the wilderness of waiting. Why I do not know. Maybe to develop within me patience. Maybe to reveal Himself to me; to show me my utter dependence on Him. All I know is that I have been called here "...for such a time as this." May HE strengthen my feeble heart as I wait on Him!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
The Wait Poem
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said,"Wait."
"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!"
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I relate,
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to Wait?"
I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting . . . for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me,
When darkness and silence are all you can see.
You'd never experience the fullness of love,
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask,
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.
So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see,
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT".
Friday, August 13, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Daxx and Beaux
Look at those muscles, dude! :DBeaux (22 months) right after a bath.
Beaux and I...picture by Daxx (3).
Monday, July 5, 2010
More Pictures from Kanakuk
The Hammocks (Where the staff stayed. Guys on bottom, girls on top.)
Every morning I walked past this play ground on my way to Plank.
My bed. It was usually quite a mess by the end of the day. The only place we had to dry our clothes and towells was on our bed. Thus my bed was a mess.K-Kauai- My dear friends!
Sweet Emily and I. Wow what an encouragement Emily was to me. She is engaged to one of the guy staff members. It was so encouraging to be able to talk with her about their relationship and their desire to honor God in everything they do!
Sam has such a sweet, God honoring heart. She too was such an encouragement to me. Keep on loving on God's people, Sam!!
Ahh, Alyson, where do I start? Alyson came early for boat driving training too. I will never forget meeting her for the first time...we hit it off right away. While we were planting flowers we talked about churches, shared our testimonies, and talked about her desire to work for a ministry that helps women involved in human trafficking. While we were there she found out she will get to do just that this fall. Praise God!
Then during one of those first nights Alyson and I went on a walk down on the lower fields together. We were both able to share our hearts. It was her first time being away from her twin sister Emily and my first time being away from home for that long. She quickly became a sister to me, and I have no doubt God sent her to Kauai just for me. What a blessing she was in my life the whole time I was there. I got continual hugs and encouragement from my dear sister! I miss you so much Alyson and hope to visit you soon!
Laura and I life guarding!! Love you girl!
Roomies!! Corrie, Lori, Sam, Alyson, and I. Everyone was about ready for bed. Haha oh our (or should I say their, I was always attempting to sleep...lol) night discussions. Haha too hilarious!
My dear friend Corrie and I! On one of our 2-4s we were going to go jet skiing together. Unfortunately, that didn't work out so I took her to Table Rock's Moonshine Beach. She is from Florida, so it was nothing like her beaches. I had to convince her that there was absolutely nothing dangerous no sharks or alligators or dangerous fish in the water. :D
One of my favorite memories from kamp is picking rocks out of the mulch with Corrie during one of the work crews. We started teaching one another scripture we had memorized. A task that could have been boring became anything but boring. I love you Corrie and especially your heart for the Lord!
We were able to go pick blueberries together on the Saturday after we were done. It was so good to be able to spend time with Corrie reflecting on our time at Kauai before returning home. Before I headed home Saturday night I dropped Corrie off at the Branson Airport. It was so hard to leave such a good friend!