Tuesday, January 25, 2011

The Wait Poem

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said,"Wait."

"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!"
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I relate,
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to Wait?"
I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.

You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting . . . for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me,
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love,
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask,
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see,
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT
".

Friday, August 13, 2010

My Favorite Water Sport

Ahhhhh, FINALLY, out on the water again! July 31-August 8, 2010




Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Daxx and Beaux

Just had to upload some picture of my boys. I get to babysit them quite often...and they are soooo fun and good!

Look at those muscles, dude! :D

Beaux (22 months) right after a bath.




















Beaux and I...picture by Daxx (3).

Monday, July 5, 2010

More Pictures from Kanakuk

The entrance to K-Kauai. To the right is the office to the left is Hana Bay, The Reef (an outside sitting area), and the ropes course.


The Hammocks (Where the staff stayed. Guys on bottom, girls on top.)

Every morning I walked past this play ground on my way to Plank.















My bed. It was usually quite a mess by the end of the day. The only place we had to dry our clothes and towells was on our bed. Thus my bed was a mess.

K-Kauai- My dear friends!

Sweet Emily and I. Wow what an encouragement Emily was to me. She is engaged to one of the guy staff members. It was so encouraging to be able to talk with her about their relationship and their desire to honor God in everything they do!


Sam has such a sweet, God honoring heart. She too was such an encouragement to me. Keep on loving on God's people, Sam!!


Ahh, Alyson, where do I start? Alyson came early for boat driving training too. I will never forget meeting her for the first time...we hit it off right away. While we were planting flowers we talked about churches, shared our testimonies, and talked about her desire to work for a ministry that helps women involved in human trafficking. While we were there she found out she will get to do just that this fall. Praise God!

Then during one of those first nights Alyson and I went on a walk down on the lower fields together. We were both able to share our hearts. It was her first time being away from her twin sister Emily and my first time being away from home for that long. She quickly became a sister to me, and I have no doubt God sent her to Kauai just for me. What a blessing she was in my life the whole time I was there. I got continual hugs and encouragement from my dear sister! I miss you so much Alyson and hope to visit you soon!



Laura and I life guarding!! Love you girl!


Roomies!! Corrie, Lori, Sam, Alyson, and I. Everyone was about ready for bed. Haha oh our (or should I say their, I was always attempting to sleep...lol) night discussions. Haha too hilarious!




My dear friend Corrie and I! On one of our 2-4s we were going to go jet skiing together. Unfortunately, that didn't work out so I took her to Table Rock's Moonshine Beach. She is from Florida, so it was nothing like her beaches. I had to convince her that there was absolutely nothing dangerous no sharks or alligators or dangerous fish in the water. :D

One of my favorite memories from kamp is picking rocks out of the mulch with Corrie during one of the work crews. We started teaching one another scripture we had memorized. A task that could have been boring became anything but boring. I love you Corrie and especially your heart for the Lord!

We were able to go pick blueberries together on the Saturday after we were done. It was so good to be able to spend time with Corrie reflecting on our time at Kauai before returning home. Before I headed home Saturday night I dropped Corrie off at the Branson Airport. It was so hard to leave such a good friend!

K-Kauai Family Kamp- ILife Night

Techy night and dressing up as a "techy" person was not my forte. LOL!

Favorite quotes...

"I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I Life"
"Cosine, ______, Tangent, Sine, 3.14159....Gooooo Tech!"

Giant IPad














Waiting for it all to start.















Corrie and I looking techy. :P

Kanakuk-Staff Training Week

Staff Training week was very busy. I don't think I have ever been so exhausted in my life. During our Purity Talk, a couple days after we arrived at camp, my head began to feel heavy and I seriously had to hold my head up. God was my strength though and always gave me just enough strength to get through the day. A normal staff training day looked something like this...

8:05-Plank
8:30-Breakfast
8:45-9:15- Quiet Time
9:15-10:00-Leadership Speaker
10:30-12:30-Work Session
12:30-1:00- Lunch
1:00-2:00-More Training
2:00-5:30- Work Session (During which we planted many flowers, sealed steps, painted, weeded, spread mulch, cleaned cabanas)
5:30-6:30-Clean up for supper
6:30-Supper
7:00-11:00- I don't really remember what we all did during this time, but one night we played a game called East vs. West (like Ultimate Frisbee just with a ball) (it was way intense!!!). Another night we went to K-Kountry's Party Barn for a concert with Thist'le and Ben Rector.

Anyway, we had super busy days and as I told my family, I did not even have time to think about being homesick. :D

We had two nights off while I was there. The first was exactly a week after I got there on Wednesday and the second was that Saturday. During the first one I went to the Stark's house to do laundry and they fed me a wonderful home cooked meal. Also, Rebekah and Bethany were down visiting them so I got to see them too. I really wanted to jump into their fluffy King Sized Bed and sleep for forever, but I had to be check back in at Jamp by 12:45. I was too tired to stay up that late, though, so I returned around eleven.

On my second night off Hayden, Hannah, Bekah, Bethany, and the Langemeier family met me at Kamp. After showing them around we drove down to the Branson Landing. Since it was Memorial Day weekend, Mr. Langemeier and I walked around for forever trying to find a restaurant where I could eat and everyone else could have dessert. Unfortunately, every restaurant had at least an hour wait, so we finally settled for a small coffee shop that wasn't nearly as busy. It was so good to be able to spend time with my dear friends, the Langemeiers. After I ate, Langemeiers left and Bekah, Bethany, Hayden, Hannah, and I went back to their house. We talked for a while and then Rebekah took me back to kamp. As I went back into the gates and shut off my cell phone, I struggled for the first time with feeling like I was trapped. I am so used to living in a big, wide open area where I can go wherever I want whenever I want. God showed me the importance of being content with wherever He has place me...including in a gated community. As I poured my heart out before my savior, God was so faithful and continually renewed my peace.

June 1st finally arrived....BRING ON THE FAMILIES!!


Hayden, Hannah, and I at the Landing!




















My sissie Bethany and I enjoying a night out!